The thing is, the label I was given as a child was Easygoing.
I didn't throw a lot of temper tantrums.
I did everything I was supposed to do in school. (Got good grades + stayed on task + didn't get into fights= trying to be a teacher's pet.)
I went to church on Sunday and didn't complain about it.
I smiled most of the time because I was happy.
I felt bad for kids who got picked on and tried to be nice to them.
Basically, I was a people-pleaser extraordinaire.
This was ME
BUT HERE IS MY SECRET...
I didn't want to be EASYGOING.
I wanted to be BAD.
I was really jealous of the kids who just did whatever they wanted in school. The teacher never forgot the names of the kids who were bad, but they forgot my name a lot.
Sometimes, I wanted to throw a big huge temper tantrum and slam doors and yell at people and CUSS just because.
Every once in a while I wanted to tell the kids that people picked on. "They pick on you because you are weird and annoying!"
Many days, sitting in church, I wished I could just YELL something really loud about how bored I was.
This is what I wanted to be...
BUT...I wasn't.
I was Easygoing. And I was good.
Now I'm older. And I feel very free in the fact that I can be nice when I want to and mean when I feel like it. That I don't have to hide the way I really feel. I guess there are moments when people might label me as a Bee-otch, but I could care less. See, when you've spent your whole childhood making sure everyone is happy and likes you, you kind of get over it.
And you learn that there are moments for both.
BUT...don't worry!
If you run into me, I promise I will still be nice to you. Because you see, Easygoing is not something you grow out of. It's just something you learn to hide sometimes.
What about you? Were you an easygoing child, or a Rebel? (If you were a rebel, be gentle and remember...I so wish I was you. :-)
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I am pretty easygoing too. Although I was super stubborn when I was younger.
I was a rebel. I had major temper issues was a bitch to everyone and did whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I'm still that way, except I've learned to manage my temper and I'm not nice when I don't want to be. What I HAVE learned though is that I actually like being nice, and having people smile. It makes me happy. And, if it makes me happy I want to do it so.....
If it makes you feel better, the fact that the teacher never forgot me made for very problematic situations as in... they always remembered when I didn't show up, which was fairly often. You'd think they'd stop caring but no. I wish they'd forget me sometimes. Also, when your always a bitch people are like "are you high?" when your nice. That was highschool and before though
I was the angel at school. . .probably not so much at home though. . .so I totally remember having those days when I just wanted to do something like yell or laugh out loud or just be "naughty"!
Maybe you are easygoing and a little unExpected!
I loved reading this. Me...I was always the rebel but not by choice. Now that I am older I have learned to embrace it.
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I was like you, I hate to disappoint people but I learned it's not something I always have to do - you just please everyone
Mostly easygoing with shades of rebel. When I went to college, I got a little bit more in touch with that rebel side!
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I've always been a people-pleaser. As I've gotten older I've finally come to realize that I'm a person too & sometimes it's ok to please myself. Old habits die hard though...
I was the easy going one at my house too. My middle sister was the rebel.
I probably would have been jealous of you regardless because you are pretty . I so wanted to be pretty inside and out and it didn't matter if you were good or bad.
It's interesting that you wanted to be bad though . I'm glad you weren't .
Fun post to read. Very insightful! I think you are a great entertaining writer. How did I do? I was practicing to be a Flattery Specialist. Dont bother with the 5$, its free. BTW I also meant it!
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I was easygoing, and hated it. Like you I wanted to be the bad girl, the rebel and even let my wonderful caring boyfriend go to be with the bad boy type. I hate labels!
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Hey, at least easy-going is good for you, rather than...stressed out. Now I am afraid that one day you are going to BLOW!
I was the pleaser, always trying to do the right thing. Didn't acquire my rebellious spirit until well into my 20's. Now I am much, much better at saying the big, hard words like "No." and "Thank you, but that's not something I'm interested in."
Loved your choices of illustrations for your two selves!
I am both an Easygoing and a Rebel. Very confusing..lol
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Thanks for stopping by my blog and following too! Yes, I love meeting new people here in this blogosphere, where otherwise I would have never have had the pleasure!!~Lisa
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I was a very quiet rebel. I did things that no one else would do, but I didn't talk about them so no one actually knew. Not bad things, just different things.
I am still a rebel, but I am not always quiet about it now.
I feel the same way too! About everything. So hard to choose on links for Thursdays and Fridays, then I feel bad for the ones I don't link to! I also was good, and couldn't wait to be bad. I got to college, and I was like, Ok I'm ready to party! Anyways, love your post, was relatable obviously. Here from Mama Kat!
I have always been a little of both....depending on the situation. But Now...the difference is...I'm over the people pleasing part...and on to doing what I feel is most important.
Neat that your post worked for both memes.
Oh I was so easygoing, such the angel.
I'm still angelic for the most part - always putting myself in the other person's shoes - but as I get older I DO get crankier.
I wonder what I'll be like when I'm 80! I'll be the bad girl and all the bad girls will slow down to be good girls, but what fun is that at 80?!
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I wasn't really labled anything as a kid, and the lables I did endure changed yearly as I grew up. LOL. But I can completely empathise with your feelings about all those things!
Once again, thanks for the follow! Great story here!
hmmm ... back in the day i was quite the protesting rebel ... i remember walk outs, sit ins, be ins, and just general protesting .... yeah, that kind of granola eating peace loving rebel!
I was easygoing as a young girl and lost it along the way. If you find it, my husband says to mail it back to me PRONTO! :)
I was neither easy going or rebel! I always did what was told, but deep down inside, I resented it..Great post!
At elementary school I was pretty much a loner and very quiet, by the time I got to high school I was still a loner, but a rebellious one at that!
Haha. Have you let your kids read this?
I was quiet...and a little angry. But I have easy going kids that I feel like get looked over because they're so easy.
...I hope they don't retaliate by being bad!! :)
Funny. I used to be spicy as a teen. But I really am easy going...in that it takes a lot to make me truly mad or whatever. And I give a lot of rope to people... benefit of the doubt. But because I can be blunt or sound strong in my convictions it may appear that I'm not as flexible as I really am.Hard to tell from the outside. Some people who appear easy going are actually rebelling and resenting under the surface and others who seem saucy on the outside are actually pretty centered and chill.
Many of us are a blend, I'm sure. But catch me at the wrong time of the month and all bets are off. (=
Wow. What incredible writing you shared with us on our little journey through Alphabe-Thursday.
I love how perfectly you captured the good child wanting to act out.
I believe we all have a bit of each inside...I'm glad you stuck with the light side. The dark side, while perhaps more remembered, is really an ugly place to be!
Thanks for a thoughtful and thought-provoking link this week.
I enjoyed my stop here very much.
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AHHH!! I wanted to be bad too but couldn't figure out how to do it without getting in trouble. I hates making people mad, so I stayed fairly safe. I think I'm paying for it now, though. All rebellion, all the time.
I was the easygoing angel type, far too concerned with what others thought to even consider being bad. Pretty boring, huh?! :-)
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